An emotional day

I was asked to speak to the North Dayton Christian Womens Club today about jewelry and stones; the 4Cs - carat, cut, color and clarity, etc. There was a group of about 100 ladies and it was funny - In my career I spoke in public all the time and on television a lot, but since I haven't done it in so long, I found myself quite nervous! There were a few times I stammered and forgot what I was about to say, but overall, it went well. I guess at each of their meetings there is a speaker on a "theme", like today it was about jewelry, and another speaker that is there to share their spiritual journey. That speaker was a delight!! Funny, engaging and a walking embodyment of Christianity.

I often get turned off by organized religion because so many that claim to believe don't necessarily walk the walk, myself included. Since my mother died I've been in a terrible depression, having also had to close my business that was so much a part of my life and social network, as well as income. I lost my dear mother in law not 2 years before my own mom, and in between those two deaths my son left for college and my husband got cancer. That, and many other more minor stresses, including my own failing health, really have taken their toll on my mental health and psyche.

Today was a good reminder to take my troubles to God in prayer and to remember that there is a reason for everything. When I got home, I turned on the tv and watched Michael Jackson's funeral. It made me sad that we didn't have any kind of ceremony for my mother. I thought Jackson's funeral was touching and tasteful; I've always been a fan. It makes me laugh to think both moms and Michael Jackson bumping into each other in the afterlife....talk about 3 VERY different souls.......